I am used to running around and doing a million things in one day–shopping for a client, art directing a photo-shoot, blogging, grocery shopping, a phone consult–but since Ida was born things have changed. I am doing a lot more sitting around, so much so, that I think I’ve created a permanent crater in our living-room sofa . With the breast feeding situation as it is I rarely have more than four pumped ounces of milk in the fridge at one time and I have not yet driven with alone with just Ida and me in the car, so we go out just as a family when the three of us are able. Also, my neighborhood (hilly and a touch on the dicey side) isn’t great for talking stroller walks. Although I know we won’t be sedentary forever–being jungalow-ridden has drastically changed my lifestyle.
Yesterday I had four extra ounces pumped so I got to duck out for a few minutes and I got my eyebrows waxed and got a gelato. When I got home I felt so refreshed and pumped to pump, to be a good mom and quite contented to sit in my corner of the couch. The little things have become huge.
While it’s been hard to adjust to just hangin’ so much, it’s also been a restful, pensive, contemplative time. Besides getting to know, and enjoy my little girl, I’ve also had a chance to read magazines, catch up on some of my favorite T.V. shows and blogs and I’ve been able to create lists of projects I can’t wait to get off the ground once Ida is a bit older and we aren’t attached at the breast 24/7.
As I flipped through the pages, I realized that I am getting into this new flow. It’s a leisurely flow (despite the somewhat sleepless nights). It’s a flow that is more the flow of a calm creek than that of a rocky, tumultuous river–and for now, that’s good. Not over-achieving is something that I need to work on. It’s enough to feed and play with Ida all day–there will be more photo shoots and homes to decorate in the future–but for now, I need to focus on Ida, and totally adjusting to this calm, new mommy rhythm.
How long did it take you to adjust to a drastic lifestyle change? Maybe it was moving to a new neighborhood, or like me, having a child. Was there a definitive moment when you felt ‘adjusted’ or after a certain amount of weeks or months did it just begin to feel natural? When did it start to Flow?
Nursing photos by Jen Lauren Grant, all other photos by J. Blakeney