I don’t think of myself as a control freak, so why is it that I find it so hard to delegate? Running my own business, working on my first solo book project, blogging daily, and being a mama means I sometimes spread myself very, very thin. My email inbox has become so intimidating that I’ve given up trying to respond to everything that comes in from a real human. My hair sometimes goes an entire week without getting brushed. Seriously. I find that I have become so used to this crazy juggle that I don’t even know how to delegate or what to delegate–and then there is certainly a part of me that believes that doing things myself is faster (and sometimes better) than explaining and having someone do it, which in the long run, I know is not always true.
Another piece of the puzzle is this superwoman paradigm that I’ve adopted. I look at other bloggers who have lots of contributors working on their blogs and I think to myself ‘well sure they have great DIY projects on their blogs but it’s not like they’re doing them themselves?!’ It’s a chip on my shoulder. I struggle with the balance. How do I grow as a business without delegating? But how do I keep myself, by blog and my brand authentic if I’m having other people do the work? And how do I afford it all while I’m still barely keeping up with the bills as it is?
This year, in hopes to tackle this issue I’ve started to hire people to help out–for example, I got a bookkeeper to help with the money stuff. I got a designer to redesign the blog when in the past I’ve always done it myself. I have Natalie, a brilliant creative thinker who is also much more organized than myself, to help with project management–and the lovely Sara is helping out specifically with the book. This has already proved to be very helpful. But, as the end of the month approaches and it’s time to pay the bills, having to pay all of my usual expenses plus a staff (albeit bare bones) is tough. And saving? Well, that’s just impossible. I feel like my blog and business are at that point where I need to invest, delegate and continue to get people on board to help, but truth be told I can’t really afford it. I know there is the intern option, but without a real office (I work from my living room) I don’t really feel comfortable with that solution–especially since I would want an intern to have the possibility of being hired at the end of the internship, and as of right now, I could not guarantee that.
So, what’s a working mama to do? How do I choose what to delegate and what to do myself? How and where should I relinquish control of my business, blog or household? How do you decide what to pay to get done and what to do yourself? How do you delegate? I’m so curious to hear how you tackle these issues. Help!