I’m in a funk. I had a major setback with a big work project this week. And having setbacks as a working mama feels extra stressful. A project I’ve poured a ton of time, money, and resources into in the last six months fell though this week. Two main things continue to clamor through my mind. 1.) All those hours I spent on this and I could have been hanging with Ida. 2.) Every move that I make these days doesn’t just affect me, but, as the primary earner, it affects my whole family.
I suppose there is no real answer to this juggle, this struggle. We pick and choose how to spend our hours, our days, in hopes that we can grab what we’re reaching towards. But what I always need to focus in on is that with every setback, with every decision of where to pour my energies, my time with Ida will always remain the most precious thing. She’s what will always be worth reaching for–the investment that’s worth everything. I mean, look at that face. It’s hard to stay in a funk with a face like this around! So I take it back, I think there *is* an answer to the juggle and the struggle of being a working mama–the answer is, the snuggle :)